I'm turning in my cape

Not that I have pretended to be or think I have it altogether, but I am taking off my superwoman cape and I'm not going to fool myself that I have all of this under control. All of this meaning: selling a house, packing a house, having a baby, driving to WA, getting settled, you name it! Thank goodness I don't have to do it alone and Andy and I are going through all of this together. I am trying a new motto this week: one thing at a time. This pregnancy has been SO different than when I was pregnant with Kinsey. With her, everything was so easy, so happy, complete contentment; it was just about the pregnancy. Since we found out we were pregnant, it has been one thing after the other. I learned when Andy got his assignment to Korea early on in his military career that I was not in control of things when it comes to his job in the Army; I have to sit back and go with the flow. That was a great lesson. It was also a pretty great year and I felt very blessed while he was gone by the people around me. I think the time was good for us and we both grew closer together even though we were so far apart. So this week and moving forward, I'm going to look at this week and only this week and one thing at a time. This week I'm working on packing boxes and a hospital bag. I'm not thinking about when we get to WA or his deployment. We aren't buying much for the baby while in San Antonio, so I don't have a nursery to go sit in and imagine her being here sleeping in her crib, etc. I have bought a few little things (baby bag, clothes, etc.) and we've gotten a few gifts, which has been exciting and more on a happy note. We really can't wait to meet her and are very excited about the day approaching of her birth! I feel like very few people truly understand how I feel other than Andy but thankfully I have Erin to talk with; she hasn't stopped answering my phone calls so I think she hasn't gotten tired of me just yet. I know where to turn and I know where my strength comes from, so it gets old when people tell me the "silver lining" in all of this. Thankfully we have a healthy baby (as far as we know) on the way. We have a wonderful daughter already, whom we enjoy every day! Andy has a great job that we can count on and don't have to worry about the next paycheck. All in all, I needed a place to rant. If you've made it to this part of the post, thanks for listening. I feel a little bit better now! :) Just needed to get this off my chest.